It’s hard to know what to write about this self portrait – painting it felt strange, writing about it even more so. I’m not sure if other artists feel a little narcissistic painting themselves, but given how uncomfortable I am with photographs of myself, painting my own image was inevitably going to be excruciating.
I suspect that for any portrait artist, painting a self portrait is a bit of a right of passage – and yes, I know that painting the back of my head is a bit of a cop out. But what I liked about the reference photograph I used for this was the sense of height and perspective on the world. The photograph was taken on a brief break at the top of the mountain above Kalk Bay in Cape Town. It’s a 3 hour hike, at the top of which you can see both the Atlantic and the Indian Oceans you are so high up. I loved the feeling of being so high up looking across the suburbs below out to the ocean. And am I happy with the result? Partly and here’s my analysis:
Things that didn’t work in my first draft self portrait:
- I struggled to capture the sense of activity in the distance below. I was focusing so much on the figure, the focus of the painting, that I let the ground below become muddy.
- The rocks behind me aren’t well defined. Once the muddiness appeared on the right hand side of the painting I decided not to put any more time into it and didn’t go back to correct the rocks
Reasons I am pleased with my first draft self portrait:
- This is my first detailed figure painting – and for a first I’m reasonably happy with the result
- The sense of height and perspective work for me in this painting.
Now the question I ask myself is whether I should redo this painting to get it completely right. I suspect I will have to do so at some point – just because I really want to master the pieces I don’t think worked well.